Good morning everyone! I hope your Sunday is going well.
So I have, I mean had a YouTube channel. At first it was so fun and I enjoyed every part of it. Fast forward to December and I decided to try Vlogmas. I had to post a video every day until the 25th. This was stressful. Some days we had nothing going on and even though I planned a lot of Christmas activities Chloe didn’t want to do many of them. Trying to force content was not healthy for my family. I even got depressed. It was so easy to get caught up in how many views I had or how many subscribers I had. That’s not the reason I was doing this, but I couldn’t help it.
After Christmas I tried to keep a balance, but I still felt like I had a camera in Chloe’s face all the time. She didn’t care and even had fun with it, but some days I felt horrible about it. I knew something had to change, so I started only vlogging during the week and taking the weekends off. The hours it takes to edit, add music to, export and upload a video became overwhelming. I started feeling anxious again.
So this past Friday night my husband told me he wasn’t comfortable having Chloe on YouTube. I thought he was ok with it since I was doing this to help other families like ours. I respect what he thinks and told him I needed a break and I would stop. He asked if I could delete the videos and I said I could. So I filmed a farewell video, with the hopes that I could come back on my own, without Chloe.
It wasn’t as hard as I thought it would be. I sat up until after 1 am Friday night and deleted the videos one by one, I appreciated that so many of my subscribers were sad to see us go. I loved my subscribers. I have made friends with a few of them. I do think I will be back with my own channel, without Chloe. Its better for her and I wont have to vlog every single day. I am going to enjoy the break for now and discuss this more with my husband. Today has been a calm and relaxing day.
I know I need to do what is best for me and my family. I love doing this blog. I love to write and this is not stressful at all for me. So I will try to post fun and interesting posts for you. Thank you to all of my followers. I appreciate you so much for supporting me. So that is the latest new in my world. LOL.